Alright then. A new blog. A new blog to tell you about the wonderful joys of my life. This is going swimmingly. lol
So the reason i wanted to write this blog is because I want people to see me. The real me. with no edits about what i write or what i think. Finally freedom.
So about about my life(for anyone who doesn't know already). I am happily married to my best friend. To the sexiest Sailor i have ever meet, Chad. He is my rock and shoulder. He is my cigarette to my flapjack. My bong to his blintz. I love him with all my heart. I couldn't ask for anyone better in my life. He is a United States Navy Sailor. We are station in San Diego, CA right now. I have been all the way over to Japan with him. Traveled and seen some wonderful things. I am glad we are back in CA (born and raised baby.. So~Cal for live!!!!!!!!!!!) We have a little over 2 years late out here and then we have to chose where we go next.
In 16 days will have been married for 3 years. I know that doesn't seem like long at all to you guys but to a Sailor and his Navy Wife it seems like forever. I wont take back a minute of it though. I love growing with him and learning new things everyday. I love being able to kiss him and smell him and just touch him. Its something you don't realize you miss until its sitting in the middle of the ocean. No kids(yet). I'm trying to get into college but the Navy is taking so freaking long to get the paperwork started its driving me bat shit crazy. I will get there one day. I have really good friends in my life. Anna(best friend besides Chad). Love her to death. She gets me, she knows where im coming from even if no one else does, she understand that stupid shit i say and says loads herself. We get along great to put it easier. I care about her so much. I cant wait to meet her son Jack (jack jack). Then there is Rochelle. We meet in high school and even tho we lost touch for a few years we are still friends to this day. Love that girl.. She is a funny and slow (say that in a nice way) as i am. Love her.. That was just to name a few so now don't freak out.. I love all my friends.. just don't feel like breaking my hand naming you all.. so suck it..
Ok so i have come to realize that i was never fat, just thicker in some areas.. But now im just big. Like really big. Like i don't want to look in the mirror big. Yes i get it. "no Victoria your not fat" but really and truly people. I'm not skinny and im not huge so im just big ok. Yes i understand also that im the only one to blame and that can do anything about it. So guess what. I am. I'm damned and determined to look good again.. If not "good" then better then what i am now. I want my husband to look at me and be like "damn". I want to be able to go shopping and not feel stupid every time i try on clothes. I will be "skinny" again. I will do it all on my own. I will work hard and play even harder. I will not go cop out like everyone else and get plastic surgery to make myself look good. Now don't get me wrong, i don't care if you have had plastic surgery im just saying if you wanna claim you being that skinny is by hard work... Fuck you. Don't go get tummy tucks and lipo and then say you "worked hard" Fuck you. As i was saying. I'm gonna work hard and its gonna happen soon. Just wish i had more support. Meaning as in getting up and going to the gym. I hate doing it at first and wont be the first to step up and say hey lets do this but once im there, im all for it. Just wanna kick chads ass in to gear to make him realize i need his support and he needs me too.. The boy needs to lose some pounds by June.. Just ready to have a work out buddy and a trainer is way to damn expensive these days..
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