Goodbye Old friend. Goodbye.

Ok so knowing someone you called a friend for so damn long, went behind your back and talked shit publicly.. ( more then once). And then in a drunk fit. texts you at 2:30 in the fucking morning saying they are sorry and want you to forgive them and to move on from this. ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?!?!?!?!  

The fucking first time you talked shit i stopped talking to you. I wasn't fake. I dropped you out of my life right then and there.... I don't need fucking stupid people in my life.

 Ok.. what i did was not wrong. I was looking out for the child she has. That poor baby has nothing to do with any of this bullshit she puts him in. He cants say how he feels..  Did i talk shit about her NO!!.  Did i tell baby daddy because i hate her.. NO!!  I don't care if you are my best friend in the whole wide world and you are putting a child in danger then fuck you.. I'm gonna step in an say something to try and get that kid out of there... Hey i didn't call CPS did i?? No so fucking be grateful dammit..   And that "friend" you think you have... Well guess what, she is the bitch that was talking shit. She was the one calling you a bad mother. IN FRONT of black guy and beaner so i am not the only one that hear it...  your "friend" told me to call CPS.. but i didn't.. So  why don't you go call her a shit talking bitch... Ya you know who you are...   And when i call you BOTH druggies... that's what i meant... When you cant wait for your son to go to sleep until you HAVE to smoke a fucking bowl.. REALLY!!!   and who the fuck carries drugs around with them to sell them when you know your 2 year old is on your hip..  That's like asking the cops to arrest you and take your kid away... "hi I'm smart"  And when i call that "friend" of yours a druggie ... SHE HAS A PROBLEM... and even her family fucking knows it... when she can down a bottle of 20 pills in 2 days... Um well now let me see... I don't think that is a druggie no... never...  Are you fucking kidding me... 

To top off all of this you think we are gonna "work this out sooner then later".. Really??  Am i supposed to just forget you talked shit about me. Am i supposed to sit there and be your best fucking friend all over again  just because you said you were sorry... 2 FUCKING MONTHS AFTER IT ALL HAPPENED!!!!  No its not fucking happening.

I don't need people in my life that think they can just walk all over me.. If you pulled your head out of the drugs and the booze then maybe you would realize that guess what.. You have a good life if you just worked a little harder for it.  

Whats so sad is with me being a navy wife, its not easy to find a "real good" friend.. I HAD a real good friend in you. You knew me like no one else. We went through things together that brings people together... You throw that all away because you couldn't see i was being a friend. A friend that was looking out for your child when you weren't in the right mind too..  I was being the responsible adult in a childish situation..  Does it hurt that i lost a good friend to drugs.. Yes.. You cant stop the drugs long enough to see whats going around you.  Now OK. yes i used to be a really really big pot head... And every now and again i will smoke pot when im in the mood for it. The last time i smoked pot was in Feb. and that was in Vegas so i could sleep so i could party later that night. Is it something i need. No.. something i like once in a blue moon. yay.. But am i a druggie that needs/does it every day to live and get by.. NO... Now don't get me wrong. I have friends that smoke butt loads of pot. But will they do it in front of kids. NO.. Do they get up and go to work. YES... do they take care of what they need to take care of before going and hit that bong. YES!!!. That is called being responsible... 

So finish my mild little blow up here...  Think before you act. And if someone does something you think is wrong and hurts you. Why not go to THEM and confront the problem head on. Talking shit behind someones back is gonna  make you look like the fool and in the end , loss friends.  So think before you act. Look at things in someone Else's eyes. Maybe you will see that they were only trying to help.

A update in the life

Life goes on right.  Well life is getting better and better. I will find out in the next few days if i have a job. Chad is finally car-pooling with a friend so i can have the car. Its so oober annoying that im stuck home everyday. I understand i did it for so long but now i cant stand it. I need to be active. I need to do something and what better way is to work and help out..lol  Help pay all the things for our new puppy.. YES!!!!!  I'm so excited. Its gonna be a boxer lab mix. I am going to pick up a gate tomorrow and the cage from my mom.  So in the next couple of weeks Chad and I get to bust our ass to finally get the back yard in order.... Hopefully this coming pay day replace the gate on the side of the house so she cant get out... I have to also find a cage for the back corner so when im gone or need her outside i can... 

I'm excited for the cats to finally have a playmate that doesn't just sleep 24/7... I'm kinda scared tho that Dude is not gonna get along. Daniel is going to be pissed at first and then he will get over it but Dude.. I don't think he knows what  a dog is and how to act around one... lol.. We will see tho.. a couple of days and they will learn to love each other... (i hope)..  

Daniel and Dude are now snuggling with each other... cleaning and licking each other so im happy that they are getting along so well for such a short period of time... I think because Daniel had to live with me at  Dougies house that he got used to so many different things around all the time.. Lizards, snakes, other big big dogs, fish, cats... I just hope dude doesn't have a shit fit...  

On the last but best note of the night... I found out he will be leaving a little later then we thought.. Soooo excited... the longer with him the better... But never the less.. Next year is gonna suck a lot.. But all in all i know im a strong women and i know i can make it through. I know that no matter what i will pull through. The new tool set im getting and Google will be my new best friends...  LOL   Lets just pray not so many things break so i don't have to use them that much but you know what i mean...lol..

So off to make memories...

Duder!!!!!!!!!

Bloggie bloggie Blog. Oh how i have missed you.  Life has just been so crazy.
This last weekend was our house warming party. Now dont get me wrong. I didnt get my hopes up but my god, you didnt have to lie to me... It was not a good day to say the least... But a good note. I cleaned my house like crazy...LOL
Weekend before that was Vegas.. Now i dont have to explain this. Everyone knows. Vegas is Vegas... HAHAHA

Now were to start. You know when you have a part in your life were it was good, bad, and otherwise. Then something comes along and changes that for ever and you don't see that part in life and think it will not ever come back. Ya, well i thought the same thing.    The last few weeks or so people from my past have been coming out of the wood works. No, not old boyfriends. Friends. Friends that i thought i would never really see again. I'm not saying its a bad thing but what bugs me the most is all the memories they bring back when i talk to them. Like i cant help but to talk to the person and flash back to when they were talking shit in my face.. and then a week later saying sorry...  I don't like reliving what happened during a bad time in my life but i don't mind them coming back into my life.. I just wish i could stop thinking of the past...


Well enough about bad. Good news time!!!  Guess what?!?!?!?! I'm finally getting a dog..  Its a boxer/lab mix.. Im so excited. I cant wait.. I know i know.. puppies are a lot of work but im ok with that.. I'm alright with having to wake up at 5am to take them for a walk.. or all the chewing and crying.(im crate training.. Oh joy)...  Its the active that i need to get moving.. to get my ass in gear.. Yes sir i am sooo ready for this dog its not even funny....Only problem is.. I don't think Chad is yet....   He doesn't really get what crate training is. I think he is worried about the chewing and peeing and barking and all that stuff a puppy(that isn't trained right) does. I don't think he wants the responsibility of the dog.. and what even worse is he will only be home with the dog for a month or maybe two and then he is gone. So really i have to do the training so she knows im the main bitch in this house....  lol

I do think the cats are ready though. i think Daniel will be pissed at first. Dude, well he will be Dude. I just hope they can all get along... Lets pray right...lol